Just yesterday I was flying to California after work to visit my nephews or a turnaround trip literally getting off one flight to catch another to help my sister come home for a visit with 3 little boys. Today those little boys are young men. While Zack was here we had a wonderful time as I always do with my nieces and nephews. The visit also left me a little melancholy wondering where did all the time go.
The other day as Gary and I were driving, tears started to fall they were happy and sad tears all in one. As I realized Zack is not the little boy who ran to me with his arms outstretch wanting to be picked up and held, laying his head on my shoulder. I saw him for the first time as a young adult, and God willing, someday will have his own family. I said to Gary it is a bittersweet moment, and how I miss the time of yesterday. As the kids grow I feel as if I am on a raft, floating further away trying to hold on (I am a visual person).
As I was coming to terms my youngest nephew grew up overnight, it dawned on me this week my youngest niece is going off to college.
Eighteen years ago was magical to be at the birth of Malissa, watching as she made her entrance into the world. As Malissa goes off to college there is a part of me selfishly wishing she would stay nearby, but I know there is a whole lot of world out there waiting for her to discover, to make her mark and to touch other lives as she has touched mine.
I have truly been blessed to have nieces and nephews that are not only compassionate, loving, caring and respectful young adults, but they enjoy spending time with a silly aunt. I am very PROUD of all five, plus one great-nephew and deeply honored to be their aunt, a role I never took for granted. As they all begin to spread their wings, I hope they will continue to know I’m only a heartbeat away. Forever my heart will be filled with love and admiration for each of them.
Since I have no control over time or a magic stopwatch, I couldn't let my niece go off to college without a fresh batch of chocolate chip cookies to share. Remember, this is the cookie jar I had everyone sign a couple of months ago at her high school graduation party. Thank goodness the oven fairy kept an eye on it so it didn't crack or break.
Do you ever wish you had a magic stopwatch? Or is this one of those silly aunt moments?
Enjoy your golden day my friends!